JOHN LANAGAN: SINGING THE HOMOSEXUAL BLUES

Apprising Ministries is pleased to present the following testimony from my friend John Lanagan who is a freelance writer and author of the blog My Word Like Fire:

Singing The Homosexual Blues

That’s a pretty sad song Clay Aiken and Ray Boltz are singing. Their “coming out” is seen by many as a cause for celebration. But my wife and I are not celebrating. We have both repented of this sexual sin. We belong to Jesus Christ, and we rely on His Word.

When I was thirty eight years old, I was informed my father had AIDS. I discovered that he had had a secret life for decades. Once having learned this, much of his misery, his desperate drinking, and his fear and anger began to make sense. My father sobered up in his later years, went to a psychiatrist who convinced him homosexuality was normal, and died of AIDS in the late 1980s. He was in a coma the last three days, and I hold to the hope that Christ came to him.

While I hadn’t known about my father’s secret sin, he never knew about mine. In the early 1990s, I traveled to New York, prepared to fully commit myself to a lifestyle I never did feel right about. I could not seem to escape it. It was a demonic dimension of drag queens, transsexual bars, and drug and alcohol drenched nightclubs. While I am not purposely trying to provoke anyone, neither am I going to deny there is something very strong and very evil behind our nation’s ever-escalating celebration of sexual perversion.

The Lord in His mercy sent a Christian couple to the shelter where I was staying. They knew exactly what I was up to, and ministered powerfully to me. For years the Lord helped me as I fought this thing.

Until now, I have given my testimony and told how the Lord delivered me from being addicted to alcohol, heroin, and life on the streets. I have always been ashamed of the sexual sin that I have committed, and the enemy has used this as a weapon. So I have stayed silent, fearing rejection from my fellow believers.

My wife has waited patiently for me. “Hurry up,” she says, “let’s get on with it.” There is hope in Christ, and she is not ashamed. Time is short—and how times have changed. People are growing up being told that any kind of sexual sin is perfectly normal. Homosexuality and other offenses unto God are celebrated. We are truly in the time spoken about in Isaiah 5:20: Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil; Who substitute darkness for light and light for darkness; Who substitute bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter.

As His people, there must be no backing down. Homosexuality is sin, and all the sit-coms and pro-gay movies in the world cannot change that. Sin is sin, and it is appalling how some Christians ignore unmarried heterosexuals who attend church but blatantly live together. Know anybody like this?

Despite the world’s celebration of homosexuality, many do not want to be in such bondage. Here are some blunt but very encouraging words. According to 1 Corinthians 6:9-11:

Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God. Such were some of you; but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God.

I don’t have all the answers. But I know the One who does.

by John Lanagan, My Word Like Fire

See also:

APPRISING MINISTRIES: SHOCKING NEW EVIDENCE JESUS CONDEMNED THE PRACTICE OF HOMOSEXUALITY

BRIAN MCLAREN, THE EMERGING CHURCH, AND HOMOSEXUALITY: WHAT’S SO HARD ABOUT THAT?

ROB BELL SINGS THE SIREN SONG OF THE SELF